'i love you'

its all i needed

i love you too

i cant breathe

its so easy, but its suddenly so difficult

it's ok though, i dont even want to

all time favourite

whats not to love, its johnny depp, and hes got scissors for hands!

friends

because i love my girls
and i need my girls

panic attack

when you get to that point, and you realise for the millionth time (but this time it really sinks in, deeper) all you really have is yourself. and its not fair because i dont want to be lonely. i dont want to be alone. but we all are. you are and always will be just one person. one. solo. single. alone. weak. defenceless. vulnerable. hurting and hurt. lost. waiting. hoping. wishing.

welcome back panic attacks. i wish i could say i'd missed you.

shouldve said no, baby and you might still have me

It's strange to think the songs we used to sing
The smiles, the flowers, everything is gone
Yesterday I found out about you
Even now just looking at you feels wrong

You say that you'd take it all back, given one chance
It was a moment of weakness and you said, 'Yes'

You should've said no, you should've gone home
You should've thought twice 'fore you let it all go
You shouldn've known that word, 'bout what you did with her
Would get back to me

And I should've been there, in the back of your mind
I shouldn't be asking myself why
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet
You should've said no, baby and you might still have me

You can see that I've been crying
And baby you know all the right things to say
But do you honestly except me to believe
We could ever be the same

You say that the past is the past, you need one chance
It was a moment of weakness and you said, 'Yes'
You should've said no, you should've gone home
You should've thought twice 'fore you let it all go
You shouldn've known that word, 'bout what you did with her
Get back to me

Was it worth it, was she worth this?
No, no, no, no, no, no

-Taylor Swift

jealousy kills

no fun is it?

its always the way,

when you could have me you didnt want me

i was your source of amusement

letting me in, then pushing me away

fucking me over

but, now that you cant have me

you've come back at my knees

beg all you want

but the games over buddy

you lose

sunshine;moonshine

i feel like crap

stupid pharyngitis,
which will turn into tonsilitis without antibiotics
..but taking antibiotics gives me stomach pains that are so bad i have to take painkillers and sleep until im feeling better, by which time it's time from another dose of the bastards
so my new doctor told me 4 bouts of tonsilitis in 6 months is a red flag for getting them removed, my old doctor told me it was 7, so i endured 5 bouts of tonsilitis last year in the hopes i only had to have just two more
and now, because of the stupid hsc and year 12 bullshit
they wont take them out this year
fucking bullshit ay
and the only bloody way to get better is resting and being healthy
who the fuck has the effort or time to do that?

uh oh

bolt it up,

lock it shut,

chin up,

they don't know, they'll never know

the story's gone untold

and secrets are safe with me

my boy

its a circle, a mean cycle

friday night bitch fight

dislocation

i'll always miss it, but it'll never be the same
big yellow schoolbus,
summers that lasted forever,
pink cheeks and blizzards in the winter,
i left my partner in crime behind,
my neighbour, my bestfriend
we'd been inseperable, we grew up together
and then one day my home was never my home again,
i said goodbye, after 5 and a half years
i left everything i'd ever known,
to come back to this place that was originally my home

goodbye town, goodbye new york day trips, goodbye summer vacations to california and skiing in canada during winter, goodbye elementary school, goodbye country clubs and perfectly manicured lawns, goodbye friends that lived in mansions, who had nannies, and their mothers baked cookies while their fathers were CEO's of big companies, goodbye rep soccer, goodbye snowball wars with the kids from the street, goodbye my house, my room, my friends

no wonder,
i was admitted to hospital on the trip home, illness brought on by 'emotional distress'
Goodbye,

28 Pequot Trail, Westport, Connecticut, USA, i guess its not home anymore is it?

run

they dont know

they dont know

they dont know

how it should be -naughty/crazy/wild/rough

I wanna, li-li-li-lick you from yo' head to yo' toes
And I wanna, move from the bed down to the down to the to the flo'
Then I wanna, ahh ahh - you make it so good I don't wanna leave
But I gotta, kn-kn-kn-know what-what's your fan-ta-ta-sy

I wanna get you in the back seat windows up
That's the way you like to fuck, clogged up fog alert
Rip the pants and rip the shirt, rough sex make it hurt
In the garden all in the dirt
Roll around Georgia Brown that's the way I like it twerk
Legs jerk, overworked, underpaid but don't be afraid
In the sun or up in the shade
On the top of my escalade
Maybe your girl and my friend can trade;
tag team, off the ropes! On the ocean or in the boat!
Factories or on hundred spokes!
What about up in the candy sto' that chocolate chocolate make it melt
Whips and chains, handcuffs, smack a little booty up with my belt
Scream help play my game; dracula man I'll get my fangs
Horseback and I'll get my reigns, school teacher let me get my grades
-LUDACRIS

sh

they wouldnt be secrets, if they werent kept quiet

to die for

long legs, hip bones,

perfect ass, well toned,

tiny wrtists, ribs that show,

collarbones and sharp elbows

you live until you die

"this is how it works,

you're young until you're not

you love until you can't

you try until you can't

you laugh until you cry

you cry until you laugh

and everyone breathes until their last dying breath"

you and me = c+c

we're stupid and immature

but we laugh and have fun

we get wild and crazy and fucked up

fall asleep tight in eachothers arms

you make everything better

and though you cant make the rain dissappear

you act as my umbrella

right/wrong

you wont stand in my way

cause i'll break your legs

14/2/10

all i really wanted was to be with you

everything else was a plus

my chris, your cass

thank you for everything

happy valentines day baby

i like to party

i like my girls

i like my boys
i like my drinks

and my cigarettes

t.g.i.f

slam dunk

your reality is that good?
so good, you dont want to have a taste of fantasy?
if only for the night..

scream

black nails, kick ass rings, nude lips, black leather and gold chains, studs, navy stripes, florals, boots, button down shirts, sequins, thick eyeliner, shaved heads, black lace underwear, watches, watches, watches, mens clothing, lace detailing, pearls and everything else that makes me want to scream in ecstacy.

i prefer apathy

teenage angst
teenage whinge
teenage, no one cares
teenagers grow up

orgasm

i would die a thousand deaths just to get my hands on this baby

do not disturb

fuckers