dirty filthy nasty

"Good girls go to heaven, bad girls go everywhere"

dissapointment

yet again

inside; come out

we all get like this,

when you feel as though you're going to explode,

or rather you have the urge to, when the pressure is on

at the moment my future is so nerve-wracking

and the present is increasingly just as bad

i cant wait to feel at peace

i hate my body

i hate how this consumes me
i wish to be thin
its funny though,
because i dont think i'll ever be pleased
10 kilos lighter and i still feel disgusting
but these days i wish could wear a potato sack

abby

just found these photos from a couple years ago
at the vet after she'd been poisoned
still feel guilty for spending 5 grand to help her survive
because after 6 months of nursing her back to health
she died of a heart attack at 5 years old
i regret not letting her be put down
and making her suffer

i miss her, she was such a sweet soul

Oops

i did it again

good riddance

it was about a month or so ago that my head cleared

i was finally able to breathe

i no longer love you

i no longer miss you

not to say i dont cherish all our memories, but

i have no desire to see you

i have no desire to talk with you

it took me long enough to get back on my feet

to put back in place everything you tore apart

but fuck i've never felt better,

i hate to say it, and i never thought i would

but ive never been happier now that you're gone

in saying that, i also do not resent you

we went through alot, ive grown so much because of you

and for your sake i hope you figure things out

before its too late

ALL THIS BULLSHIT MADE ME STRONG
MUTHAFUCKKKKKKKAZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

twist&turn

you always want me to come to you
and you never want me to leave

no thankyou

i am content
im not so eager to escape reality
cause everything seems to be going so well
for now

soul-dier

i will put back up my walls, build myself an army

k-os

we get along like a house on fire

who would have thought?

new blood

i like all this,

fresh friends and all that

getting fucked up and just chilling out

im always cold

you hold me tight when i shiver
and wont let go even after you fall asleep
your a little rough around the edges
i see straight through you

inkasaurus

So thrilled my birds have arrived,
to remind me to spread my wings and be free
you've only got one life and one chance
and it is what you make it.