2010/never sorry, no regrets

in a matter of hours, the decade will end
where did the time go
honestly,
i dont really care
fuck the past
fuck everything that i regret
because everything seems like its just beginning
this really is a new year
new start
no more 'sorry' and no more regrets

wishes turned into reality

on another planet

and on top of the world

in the early hours of the morning

sitting in a bathtub

with these people that amaze me

cigarette and champagne bath

'life' is scary, and my future looks pretty bleak, but friends like this would make me think differently.

it's not so wonderful in wonderland

poor little misunderstood baby, no one likes a sad face

$$$!!!

money this money that
when i was a kid my piggybank was just for fun,
who knew those shiny coins and pretty bills could be so painful
FUCK MONEY
all i need is a one bedroom apartment
we'll have enough to pay the rent
we'll spend our grocery money on red wine and cigarettes
we'll sleep on a hammock in the living room, because thats how we like it
no one else will understand
but we'll be happy
and money wont mean a thing

innocent addiction

ever since i was little my mother told me to be careful, she still does.

for my family tree is made up of addicts,

i've got, alcoholics, pot-heads, smokers and one addicted to prescription medication.

where do i draw the line between liking something and being addicted?

i suppose it's when you can no longer live day to day without it, im not so sure but if im not already there im close, without these things life would seem that much more pointless thats for sure.

diamond

im getting a diamond tattoo, on my right side, right next to my boob, it's going to look good, so fuck you all
i may be weak
but my diamond will keep me strong
diamond strength

dripdropdrip

your better off dead

you are selfish
you have no respect
you are irrelevant & irritating
you are pathetic
you are a bad person
you are scum

but i have a feeling you'll get what you deserve, one day it'll all catch up to you, but what price will the others pay?

i am

i am negative
i am tired
i am overthinking
i am numb
i am impulsive
i am scared
i am a liar
i am holding back
i am alone
i am lonely
i am a non-believer
i am not ready
i am indecisive
i am confused
i am insecure
i am a theif
i amd angry
i am stupid
i am self-loathing
i am waiting
i am hurting
i am anxious
i am jealous
i am weak
i am questioning
i am breaking
i am wondering
i am young
i am lost
i am paranoid
i am hoping
i am cynical
i am far from perfection

ha

you shouldnt take life so seriously
live a little

laugh a little

do something stupid

happy holidays

one day

NYC, city of dreams

im a little lost

numb

this feeling lasts longer
these heartbeats beat faster
and my head pounds harder

clear my head

nothing good ever comes from overthinking, but i cant seem to stop, my mind is plagued with thoughts, they destroy me and tear me down, sometimes i just wish it would all come to an end, and i could just drift, numb

lovers and haters

while your talking, im partying

so fuck you and say what you want

cause i have fun

live to party

drink to forget

uncertainty

fuck this uncertainty kills me
this guessing game is exciting
and totally terrifying
im crossing my fingers it'll be worth it

i desire you

waiting

remember, inhale and exhale

im in it for the long haul

the difference between want and need is self control
this time
i am no quitter

*

im not sure if you feel a spark,

but i feel fireworks

when i think of you

dont let go

reality gets less appealing everyday
hold on a little tighter
im about to slip away,
you can watch me while i disappear

little black box

sending out a mayday,we’re going down.
the thing we could've done
would've turned it round
everything we had, scattered everywhere.
searching through the wreckage of a love affair.

you got something to say?
say it to me,
not everyone else.
you say that i’m to blame,
my words are in vain
don't go fooling yourself.

there’s a little black box, yeah,
somewhere in the ocean,
holding all the truth about us.
it’s a little black box,
a record of emotion,
everything that ever was.

- stan walker

Caleb Followill (Kings of Leon)

oh the things i would do if i could have my way with you

i want this to last forever

its always going too slow or too fast
i want a pause button for those moments i want to last forever
a stop button for the moments i cant handle
a fast forward button for the bullshit and fuckwits
and a rewind for the moments i want to relive over and over

hells angel

if god is real, im totally fucked.. and i couldnt care less

party, drink, dance

you dont own me

your control is only limited

you think you're helping

but you'll see how this will effect me

you'll regret your decisions

i'll make sure of it

you think you've seen me at my lowest

the worst is yet to come

this holidays is going to be a good one.

brace yourselves.

babydoll junkie

i worry i wonder i wish i want

i wished and i waited
i wanted you to feel the same
and you did,
but it was all for her

hold on

i miss you

who you used to be

what you used to stand for

we had fun didnt we

nothing ever lasts

everything ends someway and somehow

lifes like that

fuc

spidey

im not lonely im just alone

a friend asked me the other night 'why do people always turn out bad?'
no matter what you choose to believe,
in reality you can only really trust yourself,
sooner or later you reach the point where you've been let down by every person you were ever stupid enough to put your trust in,
trust no one
i hardly trust myself

chemistry

turn off the lights and turn off the shyness

cause all of our moves make up for the silence