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i dont blog alot anymore
i guess i just dont have alot to complain about
things seem to be going fairly well
and i know i have good friends to help me out when they dont

fly

always feeling trapped, i want to be free as a bird

perplexed

i know you like no other

gold

goodbyes

Jesus christ im alone again,
What did you do those 3 days you were dead?
Well jesus christ i'm not afraid to die,
I'm a little bit scared of what comes after,
Do I get the gold chariot?
Do I float through the ceiling?

- Brand New

NYC - city of my dreams

i miss snowy newyork
i also miss hot, sticky new york,
also, gorgeous fall new york,
and refreshing spring new york ,
for now i'll admire my snowglobe,
pretending i actually am where id rather be.

im still lost

im probably the most content in my life than ive ever been
i still very much doubt myself due to my shortcomings
i will never be good enough,
smart enough,
interesting enough,
small enough,
its really irritating, i wish i was as confident as i can pretend to be

mini turtle

when i was a kid i used to beg my mum to buy me one of these little turtles whenever we were in china town in NYC, they sell them illegally for like a dollar, she never gave in :(

get away !

leave me alone

i always get the bad ones

theyre the only ones i want
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

its that simple

now, i may be a bitch
i may say horrible things
but no matter what, deep down
i know when i need to have respect,
even for people im in disagreeance with
but you,
you were born without respect

678

more like i dont care

factual

Did anyone hurt you in the past couple days?
Yes

Who was the last girl that called you?
Marciarn

Does she mean anything to you?
Love her and value her friendship immensely

Do you still care about your last ex?
Not really, no

Look in your call log, who was your last phone call from?
Private caller

If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
Yes and no, i would love to fix things and make different decisions, but then again i dont want to relive all those past situations, id rather move forward with my knowledge of the past.

What should you be doing right now?
Studying for my drama exam, learning my monologue, doing my artwork

Are you happy with how life is going for you?
Not really

Is there anyone in particular that you’re missing right now?
Sure

Do you believe in God?
No

In the last 6 months can you say you truly cared about someone?
Of course

Are you happier now than you were five months ago?
Yes definately

Do you have feelings for someone?
Yeah

Are you dating the last person you kissed?
Nope

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn’t be?
Of course

Do you text more girls, or guys?
Guys probably

Who is your last text from?
Deleted

Do you ever read the ingredients on food labels?
Yes

Are you manipulative?
I think so

Sexiest thing on the opposite sex?
Arms, face, smile, eyes, hair..dro0o0ol everything

d@d

you are so quick-tempered

you are so angry

you cannot communicate your feelings

you drink too much

but what i hate most of all is im exactly like you

people like you should not reproduce

i will try everyday to not turn out like you

for that is my worst fear

good/bad

+
the buried life (tv show)
cucumber salad
wedge heels
candy perfume
watercolours
conversation
laughing with friends (im talking full blown stomach aching laughter)

-
fb chat retardation
headaches
arguments
dissapointment
money

now fuck off

see, the attitude, it was endearing
your humour, it was funny
your face, it was attractive
your control, yeah see,
thats when i changed 'it is' to 'was'
you blew it

dirty talk

kitten heels, lingerie, pantyhose, foreplay, legs up on the bar, in the back of your car, latex, champagne, bubble bath, whipped cream, cherry pop tag team

4 3 2 1, what we fighting for

my head is twisted

part of me knows your as simple as anything

but the other half cant figure you out

have some respect

dirty filthy nasty

"Good girls go to heaven, bad girls go everywhere"

dissapointment

yet again